My room is messy

Should I clean it??

Suggestions? (Regarding next year's schedule)

I'm currently pondering my schedule for next year. As of now, I am signed up for the following courses:

AP Physics C
AP Biology
AP Calculus BC (probably not going to bother with bc+ despite knowing the material for bc...)
IB History HL
IB Literature HL
Anatomy & Physiology 2
Gym/Family Living

Now, that list would have AP macro which would round out my schedule, but I was prevented from taking that without a placement test....which is extremely stupid. However, I am not sure if I want to just take the free that would leave me with or take another class. The classes I am considering are:
AP Chem (But Rick is teaching it....so maybe not)
AP Micro (But I don't really want to....)
AP Comp Sci A (Anderson? Ew....but easy)
AP Comp Sci AB (NEVARD! RAPE!)

At this point, if I do take a class I'm leaning towards a comp sci, but I'm just not sure what I want to take or if I want to take one at all. Gah.

Ideas?

Large post of random thoughts

As I type this, I'm sitting in my living room at 12:40 pm on a school day. I guess it's nice to have allergies sometimes, even though I could hardly breathe until about 40 minutes ago. I'm not even really sure what the point of this post is....maybe there is none. Oh well. I'm trying to figure out what I am going to do with my life for the next 5 years....college admissions process blows and I really don't want to start it. Especially because I'm not going to get in anywhere I'd like to....despite being (let's ignore arrogance) rather intelligent (I hope), I was a lazy shit freshmen year and my GPA shows that. On the other hand, I have an upward trend through each year and this year I'm sitting at straight A's (with like 2 A-'s. Grr mendy). I really hate the idea that me being lazy freshmen year could kill my chances at a good school. I'm hoping that my upward trend, good test scores and life story will get me in at ONE of my top choices. That'd be ideal, but it's probably not going to happen. And its not only for my sake-I'd be perfectly willing to go to a NOT-top school, if I found some that I like. First of all, it wouldn't be that hard to get good grades and transfer out should I want to AND it would be easier for me to get a great GPA which is unfortunately necessary for med school. However, I'd prefer not to for the simple reason that I love being surrounded by intelligence and people who aren't tend to anger me. But the real reason I don't feel I can is my family-they have this unreasonable expectation that I'm going to be accepted to numerous top schools and attend one of them. Personally, I think that's ridiculous. Even for a top student, the <10% admit rate is daunting and rather hard to beat. But for someone whose grades aren't really within the range if you take the cumulative GPA, it's rather laughable. Who knows, maybe I'll get lucky at one of the higher schools that are willing to forgive things like lowish GPAs in freshmen year provided I demonstrate some legitimate passion. Or something.

Yay walls of text filled with equal amounts of arrogance, insecurity and honesty. How uncharacteristic of me.

Speaking of things being uncharacteristic of me, while I'm ranting about a bunch of stuff I might as well cover a topic I consider to be important-Me. In some ways, I'm very happy with who I am in high school. I have a decent group of friends, I'm funny, I'm fairly intelligent and I enjoy myself. On the other hand, people that don't matter (read: ones that I don't like) would automatically say that I'm an antisocial asshole upon being asked about me. Now, I don't think I care that much (but I obviously care more than I'd hope to considering that I'm writing about it), but sometimes it would be nice for more than...10? people to know that there's more to me than the dick persona I present. Obviously, this portrayal of me is my fault, but eh. Maybe I'll be able to turn that around eventually.

Maybe I shouldn't have stayed home alone. I think too much, and my thinking tends to go towards bad places when I'm not doing anything moderately productive.

Today is May the fifth, if you weren't aware. Which means that it's really close to June. Which means that it's really close to the end of junior year. Which is *awesome*. yaaaaaaaaayyy. I'm very excited for the summer. I'm hopefully doing EMT training, and I might be going away. Like, from the eastern seabord. That'd be cool-never really done it before.

Okay, I'mma end this before I go off on even more random tangents. Next post when I have something to talk about.

Wow. I hate this paper.

The first question ran me nearly 2,000 words. On its own. Out of six. Luckily, the rest of them are not as long as this....I hope.

If they are I think I'll scream.


Back to work....
-A very annoyed & tired person

ACT Writing up

Yay! I got a perfect (12/12) on the essay, which vindicates me a bit for the 32 on the english section. This gives me a 33 combined english/writing...better I s'pose. Unfortunately it doesn't affect my composite so it's still a 34. Rawr.

Over.

Break.

Over.

Not amused.

Has anyone ever noticed...

That if you change the first letter of their names to an 'F', a lot of the ivy league schools have very amusing names?


Yale->Fale
Brown->Frown
Dartmouth->Fartmouth
Cornell->Fornell
Columbia->Folumbia
Harvard->Farvard
Princeton->Frinceton
University of Pennsylvania->Fniversity of Pennsylvania

Obviously the first three are the best, but yeah. I'm late and I thought this was funny.

Results are in....

Composite: 34

English: 32--Screw this! No idea how this happened. Especially looking at reading.
Math: 35--cool
Reading:36--awesome
Science:34--eh?

English pisses me off! If i could have only had a 33, then my 137/4=34.25=34 becomes a 138/4=34.5=35!!

THEN I'd be completely set. As far as this goes, I have no idea what my opinion is. I think I'll cancel my SAT 1 retake, because looking at naviance this is average or above for our schools acceptances to most of my desired colleges. However, I also think I'll retake ACT, not looking much at studying except English! If I can pull that up a point or two I'll be quite happy.

Thoughts...? Worth retaking or no? Ugh. This score vexes me...even though it's by no means bad.

Holy shit.

Just like everyone to know that I'm freakin out right now x_x

I want my damn score! 7 minutes is too long!

--New post shortly detailing whether or not I failed...

Ramblings

Oh boy. What a strange time this has been. I'm honestly not sure what to make of this break so far..It's been odd.

ACT scores up in.....7 hours and about 10 minutes? I'm nervous. I really want to end the shit known as standardized tests.

I feel like it's already late in break, and I should be working non-stop to attempt to mitigate the amount of work I'll have to be doing in the coming weeks. Hm. Unfortunately, I seem to have left my anatomy binder at school...not sure if that matters to much though. I do have two editions of campbells as well as the internet, so that should be enough for the take home test.

I've also officially started the college process (In my mind), in that I have asked for and gotten confirmation for my first recommendation (from my IB History teacher, if anyone is curious). Only one more left, but i'm not sure if I want it from my physics teacher or my anatomy teacher. Choices choices.

I wanna do something soon...I'm going stir crazy in this house. It's so boring! And I have been out pretty much each day of break so far. Except today. That's how incredibly boring my house is. I need plans tomorrow. Maybe I'll go read something...I have enough time to finish a nice long book before scores come out. That might calm my nerves a bit. Yeah. Or, on the other hand....not?

Weird.

The Mets are pissing me off btw. Fucking out fielding errors are going to cost us the season? This is bullshit.

Okay I think I'll stop ranting now....I'm in a very odd mood right now.

BREAK BREAK BREAK BREAK BREAK!

Not that I'm excited or anything. Really...I swear. Or not. Oh well.

So far in break, I really haven't done much. Except not turn in the lit essay (I couldn't register for the class!), learn a bit of programming in python and make my entire family hate me.

But none the less, the ability to sleep and not be worried about another day w/ certain teachers is a godsend. Well, a non-existant godsend. Except it does exist. So really, it's just fucking awesome.

Yay!

Reading posts on the internet by stupid people makes me feel better about myself.

"IT WAS NOT EASY!!! YOU'RE MAKING ME FEEL SO STUPID!!! =[


I don't think I've learned anything about astronomy since like 3rd grade. And I had no idea that Saturn is big.

If the question were, say, what is the SECOND largest of Mercury, Earth, Mars, and Venus, I bet most of you would've had no idea."


Regarding one of the science questions on the ACT, which literally asked: Which of these planets is the largest?
A: Mercury
B: Earth
C: Saturn
D: Venus

People legitimately freaked out because of the "immense amount of prior knowledge it required" which was "absolutely ridiculous for the ACT to expect people to know".

Lmfao. Stupid people are hysterical.

I'm an Ass

Me:
leave me alooone
Her:
then what numbers do i use to calculate the initial resistance
Me:
i'm busy
Her:
noo.....i realllly need help
Me:
room temp

it should be easy
Her:
i ct do this tomorrow
Me:
AND I DON'T CARE

I'M BUSY

you're fucking lab

does not take precedence

over what i want/have to do

because i care more about me than you

kthnxbai

*end*

And I don't give a shit. Honestly, fuck you, I matter more than you do, and I care about my time far more than I care about yours. Agh.

In other news, I'm pretty sure I did quite well on the ACTs! I think I'll hit my 34-36 score range. And BOAT was awesome.

ACTs!

Ohhh boy. ACTs this weekend.

If I get a 34+ composite, I've decided that I'm done with standardized testing and I will NOT bother to take the SATs again in May. Then I can focus solely on the three SAT II's I'm taking in June. That'd be kind of a freeing feeling. Regretfully, BOAT is also Saturday, so I can't be there for the whole thing. Hopefully it'll be awesome though.

In other news, in a week I'll be on glorious spring break! And after that, only two months left as a junior. Wow. That's kinda neat. Although, college's intimidation is only getting more and more ridiculous! I'm seriously flipping out. (If anyone cares, my favorites as of now are: Brown, Northwestern, Cornell, Johns Hopkins and a few others-doubt I'll make any of these though...)

Yay summer! I can't wait to be an EMT. I want this to happen quite badly. And speaking of next year, I think I've decided on an internship oppurtunity-the Stevens Institute of Technology Optics Lab. They do a lot of work with different kinds of lasers, and it sounds incredibly cool. I was originally thinking a rotations one, but I'm already doing EMT training this summer and will be working with my local ambulance corps. at least once or twice during the week, so I wanna focus on some of my other interests.

Wow, this post had a lot of digressions. Yay for spewing what ever is on my mind?

P.S.-Ms. Fuentes made $473 in the time it took me to write this.